Monday, December 31, 2007

Should auld acquaintance be forgot?

I feel absolutely awful tonight. Lonely. Unloved. Uncared about. And on top of it all anxious about the new year.

Need to blog in a major way. I just hope that 2008 is a better year than the last few have been.

Resolutions? Not really, but I WILL FINISH MY THESIS, even if it means scaling back on work and eating lentils every night. Deep down I know what I want to do, but am too scared to admit it- either adult education or helping teens in distress or something that makes a difference.

So there you go.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Confusion, December and all that..

OK! Need to blog on the following...
1) Mediation, Christmas etc
2) G
3) work and promotion
4) future- thesis etc
5) Melbourne
6) self discoveries

So will try and get around to it sometime over the weekend!

Meme in 2007

12 months ago I posted this I know I need to blog big time- December could take me hours to get through, but first, here is my reflection on the year that is fast disappearing...

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
Twittered and Facebooked. Explored Web 2.0 and online networking.
Apart from that separation was a new thing


2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I think it was to cleanse and moisturise my face every night. Think I did it for a few months. I weight less than I did 12 months ago, but only just.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
A couple of friends up here did.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Some of my mother's friends, but I didn't go to any funerals.

5. What countries/states did you visit?
Sydney after easter and had a blast!

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
a degree!

7. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
10 May. Separation Day and the day SFB tried to kill himself.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Meeting new people...
Contract at work and then promotion.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not finishing my thesis

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Tonsilitis for the last 4 months.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
New MacBook (on Interest Free!)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Not sure about this one. My kids continue to amaze me.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
SFB

14. Where did most of your money go?
Bills and food and now lawyer bills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Meeting G!

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Grace Kelly by Mika or Straight Lines by Silverchair

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:?
a) happier or sadder?
happier

b)thinner or fatter?
a little thinner

c) richer or poorer?
richer, but only just and perhaps I am just wishing this!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Housework and thesis

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
procrastinating, worrying about SFB

20. How did you spend Christmas?
With mum, bro and kids at hotel for lunch. Kids went to their dad's at 3 pm.

21. Did you fall in love in 2007?
Don't think so... But maybe... Time will tell.

22. How many one-night stands?
Who me ;-)

23. What was your favorite TV program?
All Saints, Desperate Housewives, Spicks and Specks, The West Wing, Brothers and Sisters, Dr Who

24. Did you make a friend with anyone that you didn't know this time last year?
G... And I think no matter what happen he will be a friend for a while :-) and K who I am so sad has moved back to Adelaide.

25. What was the best book you read?
A few cookbooks come to mind, including Maggie Beer's 'Maggie's Harvest' that K and I gave each other for Christmas.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Not sure...

27. What did you want and get?
separation!

28. What did you want and not get?
the management promotion at work

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
Didn't see that many. Enjoyed 'Knocked Up' and 'Fred Claus'

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
35. Spent the day all alone and had an awful time.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
W accepting the separation

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
black and white!

33. What kept you sane?
Twitter!

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Orlando Bloom...

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Global warming, water issues, IR laws

36. Who did you miss?
Friends who live too far away...

37. Who was the best new person you met?
G! and K for our foodie friendship and laughs together!

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007.
I don't need a man to make me happy. (or so I keep trying to tell myself!)

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me


Here's to a great 2008...

Monday, December 10, 2007

It's complicated




This tickled my fancy! It's from xkcd