So confused

I don't know what P finally said to W last Tuesday, but he finally got W moving. I mean last week I told W that it was over. He moped in bed for 2 days, then went to see P and since then has been fantastic. I haven't though. I have been downstairs 'studying' and yes, I have done quite a bit of thesis, but have also been chatting online a bit. But whilst down here (and I have been down here most evenings) I have heard the vacuum cleaner. The kitchen has been spotless since Tuesday. The bed sheets have been changed, washed and folded back in the linen press. The laundry is up to date. If he had done this 12 months ago then what a different course life would have taken.

I just don't know how to take this sudden change in attitude/behaviour. I am just confused. I told him that it was over and that made him change. I worry that he has only changed because he has been ordered to by P. I am just waiting for his regression. And yet I still don't really love him, but still perhaps staying is better than sole parenting.

Oh and he is still not toughing me, but I have been the ice maiden and have been avoiding him at all costs. He asked me who I had been talking to. I kinda lied and said T and the supermums, but in reality I have been chatting a bit to H and also D. H thinks W is a nutcase! I think I have forgotten what happiness is. I feel that the ball is back in my court and I am not sure what to do with it.