Decisions, decisions

I had a great day at work! I am technically rostered on for 8.25 hours this week and when the roster came out I almost cried. But then today when I was rostered on for only 3 hours they got me to stay for the rest of the day and they put me in electrical! I have been telling them for ages that I should be in electrical as they need more oestrogen there, but only after I mentioned to the lady in charge of rostering that I really would like to go there has she arranged for me to have some time there! And I did a great job selling 2 iPods and following protocol! Looks like I might have passed and my towel folding days are behind me!

So I get home and W has taken the kids to his illegal nursing home service. But still it keeps him happy and even though he is not licensed, he enjoys working with the aged and they love him. I suppose someone has to. But he has the kids with him and they aren't home yet so I get annoyed that the kids should be almost in bed. Dinner is cooked and waiting for them at least.

Last night we went to BIL and SILs place for a barbecue. I had a great chat with SIL. She agrees that W is a loser and lazy etc etc etc. She said that if I didn't kick him out (which she thinks I should) I should at least contemplate an affair! LOL! Only trouble being I wouldn't know where to start! And I don't believe in casual sex. I think that is one of my worries. I will end up single and like my mother all alone. Mum was widowed at 44 and, apart from a drop-kick she met on a tour of North Queensland and dated for a few months, has been single. I so wish she had someone apart from my loser brother to spend her life with but I know she is scared.

I am worried on two parts- 1) I don't want to make the same mistake again and marry too quickly and 2) I don't want to be alone for the rest of my life. SIL reminded me that I am young and could still find Mr Right. I am just not ready right now and I turning 35 this year which is *the age* for declining fertility. I have always said I want 3 kids and there is no way I want another kid with W, but do I want one with someone else? Miss I told me earlier in the week that if Daddy and I did divorce then I could always get a boyfriend! LOL!

Oh and my way of coping at the moment is to drink. W and the kids still not home and I have polished off a bottle of Semillon. Probably not the best move. What do they say about drinking alone? Perhaps I will have to have the rest of the week alcohol free.