Weird Day Off

Started with a visit to my GP. He is lovely. Had a 5th year medical student with him who was as green as! Both GP and I kept quizzing him. Was quite funny really! GP admitted that he didn't think I had been suffering from clinical depression at all over the last 18 months, but rather I was suffering emotional fatigue from putting up with W's depression. Was kinda nice hearing that I am not the psych patient. I did admit though that single life is pretty sucky.

As it was an 8.30 appointment, I decided to go for breakfast afterwards. Had a very nice one complete with chai tea on soy. Came home and tidied the floor in the lounge in 15 minutes. Perhaps flylady.net is right- you can do anything in 15 minutes...

Then went for my long overdue waxing appointment. I think it has been 3 month since I last had waxing done and my eyebrows, underarms and legs were feral! I think I could have plaited my underarm hair! LOL! Did a grocery shop on the way home and picked up a packet of condoms. There are 12 and they expire in 2011. My guess is I will have 12 of them in 2011 still! LOL!

Came home and actually caught up with H online. It was lovely and he was very sweet. He has booked to come to a conference here net May so I may yet get to use some of these condoms! He is very sweet in that he is certain I will have been snapped up by next May but I assured him that is the last thing on my mind at the moment.

This afternoon I got quite down. The thought of going into work for a 12 hour shift tomorrow is not thrilling me, even if I am not in the department but roving.

One other accomplishment for today was that I made an appointment to see a lawyer next Tuesday. I just hope it is worth the $350/hour, but I suspect that if I get to keep this house it will be. He was recommended by a friend of a friend who is a family lawyer and she has told me that I need to get a written psych assessment on W before I let him have unsupervised access. I think what I m beating myself up over is the realisation that the person W became through our marriage was not the man I married and perhaps that has a lot to do with me. I keep seeing myself as a pretty awful person and am having trouble finding things to like in myself. This is not helped by work or by being alone. I feel so so lonely in the house by myself. I rang to make an appointment with R, but she has taken the holidays off.

Tonight I went to see 'Knocked Up' at a special preview screening. It was so amusing in parts, even if it was also crass and the language was very very colourful. I think overall I enjoyed it, but would have preferred to share it with someone. I think I need to look at getting another dog.