1,000,000% confused
Let's just say that it is fortunate I am seeing R tomorrow.
Something happened last night and I am so confused about it. Basically, W took the kids to the dodgy service he takes at the old folks home. When he got home, I was cooking tea and had a glass or two of wine. Anyway, he went downstairs to watch telly and I went in to tell him something and the next thing I can remember what he said but I was in his arms and he was telling me how much he loves me and he wants everything to work.
So last night was quite nice (blush) and I told him over and over again that so much had to change if things were going to work out. I woke up at 3 am and tossed and turned for an hour or so wondering if I was doing the right thing, then this morning he leant over and kissed me good morning and snuggled into me. It felt lovely, but then I told him again that things needed to change and I was told that he agreed, but he wasn't going to change. So alarm bells started ringing again. J was thrilled that daddy was showing mummy affection, but I am concerned Miss I may not understand and will be more confused. We start family therapy on Wednesday as well which could be beneficial.
Perhaps this is the last time and his one last chance, I don't know. I am just very tired and very very confused.
2 comments:
Hi.
Is it perhaps that this is what you needed, one more try from you both to see how it went? If it works out fabulous and if it doesn't then you know you've done everything you can.
Any which way you look at it, it's not a we're happy/we're not with a line you cross from one side to the other. It's a continuum that you move back and forwards to greater or lesser extents.
You know that what ever happens you have friends who wish you nothing but joy in life and will support you whatever comes.
love
S.
I could comment but my thoughts on this contain too many swear words for publication.
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