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Can't think of much tonight.

Big mistake #1 of the day: not looking for my car keys. Meant I had to try and use W's and he was a pig about it and we ended up bickering and he ended up telling the kids how awful I am and then bawled and sobbed for a couple of hours.

Big mistake #2 of the day: going with him to see P. P took this as an indication that I don't want our marriage to end. I mean, what the! W had an appointment, I didn't go last week and W wanted me to go this week. Plus W was a blubbering mess so I had to drive him there. I was very angry throughout the session, but hey, wonder why! I was not very compassionate at all. P was a little hard on W and told him to act like an adult and stop being so immature and grow up, but I don't think it was heard. He also reiterated marriage counselling. Never go to a Catholic Shrink, especially a non practicing one! They never give up.

P rang this afternoon whilst W was out teaching RE. I was only told in the session that W had taken this on! P told me that it was unfair to think that W would organise the marriage counselling and then said that he thought that Relationships Australia mightn't be the best organisation to go through and gave me the name of a private psychologist. He also suggested I see her as well as us seeing her together, but implied that this would be after W and I had seen her together. I rang for an appointment to be told that she is not part of the medicare scheme and each session will cost $100 which I will get some back from Medibank Private. Looked up our extras and I will only get $400 back per calendar year. This will probably only be around $40 a session too. We can't afford it. Anyway. R rang back to make an appointment and I kinda told her that P had recommended we see her together and that perhaps I should see her alone too. She told me she wanted to see me first. Wow! And she can see me Wednesday afternoon. Wow! So at least I will have an audience, even though it will be an expensive one.

In other developments, Miss I has been 'accepted' (is that the right term?) by a Case Worker at Child and Youth Mental Health Services. The lady I spoke to said that she needs to see someone when I told her a little of what was happening. Miss I is pleased as she is really screwed up at present. She is having trouble concentrating at school and also separation anxiety in the mornings at school. She is not sleeping at all well and has been asking for someone to talk to.

So roll on Wednesday and Monday.