Today's appointment

It only took 3 minutes before I had dissolved in tears today. That must be a new record. I don't break down at every appointment, but this morning I was particularly stressed and had had enough. P really challenged W. He asked him how he was feeling seeing his wife in tears. W said he felt helpless. P told him that he had to get up move to the seat next to me and put his arm around me. W did it, but I don't really know if there was feeling there. We spent the rest of the session talking about anger and focussed a bit on my anger. I feel justified in being angry, but I need to work out ways to better deal with my anger. I have three types of anger- anger at the church, stubbornness and a feeling that nobody can tell me what to do. W just has passive aggression which we are dealing with (again) next session. I am just so tired and feel that my body is telling me to stop. I have broken out in zits all over my face and feel like a week in bed would be a good idea.

P did challenge W's views of how the house should be and told him that it is a joint thing. It is not my house, but our house so we both have to work at it. We'll see how we go. I actually looked up the family court page on separation last night. As tempting as it sounds though, I really have to think of the kids. They both adore their daddy and I would forever be the über bitch for taking them away from him.