I think...

I am falling in love, or more to the point I may have already! And, um, no, it is not with W. Although I think I still love him.

Yes H! H, dear H! To cut a long story short, he was a wee bit of a jerk yesterday morning and I kinda told him how I was a little upset (well OK! I was extremely upset, but only admitted to being a little upset!). I thought he would run a mile over this possessive nut-case from across the Tasman, but instead he apologised and said how bad he felt for hurting me. So, of course, being the pacifier I always try to be, I sent him an email last night apologising and saying what a goose I felt and that I didn't expect to be hurt by him and I was surprised by my feelings and how deep they were/are and he replied that he was also surprised by how guilty he felt and deep his feelings are. He has signed off for a while 'Love you' but I have taken it as a token sign off until yesterday after we had talked about things he said 'I do love you' and then restated it in his email. How can I not love him! He is just gorgeous! So kind and considerate and a true friend. Even if we never meet I will always value his friendship.

I told T last night when we were chatting that he is not going to leave his wife and I am not going to leave W. Well not yet anyway.

I feel like a teenager again! LOL! I want to shout from the mountaintops that I love H! I smile thinking about him. Even W noted how happy I seemed today. I am happy and it is a lovely feeling!




PS- in case you haven't gathered- I LOVE H! and no, he doesn't read this blog! LOL!